Part 6
Cordelia took a deep cleansing breath before opening the door. The sight before her forced the air from her lungs. One of her scarves covered the bedside lamp. The muted red light filled the room. Angel was relaxing on the bed, clad only in his boxers. *Fuck*
“Cordy, I thought you’d never get back. How was your session?”
“Enlightening”
He looked at her frozen form by the door. “Why don’t you join me?”
Cordelia shifted her weight foot to foot. “Bob thinks we should sleep separately tonight.”
He blinked. “What?”
“Bob…um..suggested we sleep in separate beds tonight. We have an appointment with him tomorrow morning at 8.”
Angel tried to remain calm. “Why exactly is our marriage counselor telling us to sleep apart? What kind of quack is he?” So much for calm.
“Umm..he thinks we still have some trust issues to deal with and umm..some distance might help.”
“Well I really don’t care what BOB thinks. What do YOU think?”
She suddenly found her feet fascinating. “We agreed to follow their recommendations for the sake of…our marriage.”
“I don’t believe this! Our only problem is…my wife is looking for any excuse to not sleep with me.”
“That’s not..”
“What? You enjoy toying with me? You want to see how far you can push me?”
“Angel calm down.”
“Why should I? You seem to enjoy getting me all riled up. Once a prick tease, huh Cor?”
“What did you call me?”
“I’m sorry. Did I upset you? I wouldn’t want that. Unlike you I don’t enjoy making someone suffer!”
“Pfft”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Do you really need me to clarify?”
Angel stalked across the room. He took her arms in a firm grip and shoved her against the door. “Stop playing games with me.”
Despite his painful grip, Cordy bowed her head in contrition. “I’m sorry Angel. I’m not trying to play games. It’s just..” She couldn’t finish.
“Please tell me what’s wrong. One minute you’re returning my kisses. The next you’re running away. This afternoon you were cumming in my arms and now you’re pushing me away. Again. I’m getting whiplash. Just tell me what you want from me.”
“I can’t.”
“You can tell me anything. Talk to me.”
“I can’t.”
“Dammit Cordelia! I can’t take this anymore.”
Her eyes still refused to meet his. “What do you want from me Angel?”
“I want you in my bed!”
“Fine!” She pushed him away. She ripped open her blouse and threw it on the floor. She toed her shoes off before stripping out of her pants. She stomped over to the bed in her purple bra and panties set. She flopped onto the bed and turned to face him. “Happy now?”
Angel launched himself at her and pinned her to the bed. “No I’m not happy. You’re still playing games with me.”
“Get off me.”
“Make me.” His lips came crashing down. She continued to struggle. His forceful lips opened hers. His tongue immediately plunged in. His grip relaxed letting her hands slip free. Instead of pushing, they pulled him closer. His hips started to roll against hers. Her legs drifted apart allowing him to press against her center. “Cor, please stop pushing me away.”
She couldn’t take it anymore. She had no more fight left in her. “Okay” Her hand moved him back in for a kiss. She moaned as he cupped a breast. His thumb brushed her hardened nipple. She reached behind her and unclasped her bra. He pulled it away to reveal her breasts. His lips engulfed a nipple while his hand lavished attention to the other. She laced her fingers through his hair and pressed him closer.
He savored her moans and pants as his mouth shifted to taste her other breast. The scent of her arousal was driving him wild with need. He could feel her warmth seeping through his boxers. He thrust against her.
She was lost in a sea of sensation. Her entire body was in flames. “Angel”
He trailed kisses down her stomach stopping to lick the length of her scar. Images of the ballet floated through his mind. There would be no interruptions this time. His tongue teased her through her panties.
“Angel please!”
He slipped his fingers along her hips. With a quick twist, the delicate material easily ripped away.
“Hey!”
“I’ll buy you a new pair.” He nudged her legs open a little further. He placed a kiss on each thigh before lightly blowing of her nest of curls.
She cried out at the first broad stroke. She pressed herself against his mouth. “Oh God” His growl sent delicious tingles up her spine. Her head writhed against the pillow. Her nails clawed at the sheet as his tongue and teeth worked together to devour her. His tongue thrust inside her while his fingers tormented her clit.
He felt like a starving man who just had a gourmet meal laid before him. He was already addicted to her taste. Two fingers replaced his tongue. His pace increased as her muscled began to tense. His lips latched onto her nubbin and sucked hard.
She screamed as she came. The world shattered. Her back arched off the bed. His gentle licks brought her shuddering body back down to earth.
He slowly crawled up her body placing kisses along the way. He looked into her flushed face. Her eyes were glazed with passion. “You’re so beautiful.”
His words brought a smile to her face. She reached up to caress his face. He leaned into her touch hungry for affection. She echoed his words. “You’re so beautiful.”
He shifted to rest firmly between her legs. The tip of his cock pressed against her, parting her nether lips. “Tell me you want me.”
“I want you Angel.”
“Tell me you need me.”
“I need you inside me.”
“Tell me you love me.”
She closed her eyes overwhelmed with pain. “No” Her hands clawed at his chest pushing him away. “Get off!” She wriggled out from under him. She curled into a ball at the foot of the bed. Her knees tucked tight against her chest, her arms gripped her legs and her face curled in.
He stared at her shaking form, his heart breaking. He asked for too much from her. He knew she wasn’t in love with him. He shouldn’t have tried to make her say she was. She’d rather hurt herself than hurt him and here he was, practically forcing her to hurt him. Some best friend he turned out to be. He promised himself he would be grateful for anything she chose to give him. “Cor, I’m sorry.” She started to rock. He could hear her muttering to herself. His vampire hear enabled him to listen.
“No games. No more games. Don’t make me say it. So stupid. Poor pathetic Cordy using her body to beg for love. Not a whore. Don’t make me say it. Can’t say it. I know you don’t love me. Stop hurting me. Please stop hurting me. I love you so much. Stop playing games. I can’t take it.”
Her soft pain-filled words stunned him. Comprehension finally dawned. She really didn’t know he loved her. He slowly moved to wrap his arm around her. “Shh. It’s okay. No more games. Shh.” He could feel her rigid body begin to relax against him. “Look at me.” She shook her head. “Please” He lifted her tear stained face. “I love you.”
She blinked. “What?”
“I love you.”
Her hands slapped over her ears. “No more games. No more pretend. I can’t take it. Please stop pretending.”
He pulled her hands down. “No games, no pretend. I love you Cordelia. I’ve been trying to show you how much I need you.”
“Need” Her face scrunched up in disgust. “Need isn’t the same as love Angel.”
“I know but when you’re completely in love with someone you can’t help needing them too.”
“You love me?”
“Yes”
“Say it again.”
“I love you.”
She twisted in his arms tackling him to the bed. She began landing kisses everywhere she could reach. She pulled back to look into his eyes. “I love you Angel.”
He smiled. “You do?”
“Yes” She started to shower him with more kisses. “IloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyou!” She nibbled on his ear. “Make love to me Angel.”
She giggled when she suddenly found herself being pressed into the mattress.
Angel stared into her hazel eyes. He desperately wanted to bury himself deep inside her but he hesitated. “Are you sure? We can wait if you’re not ready.” He suppressed a groan at the thought of waiting.
She smiled at his strained expression. She cupped his cheek. “We’ve waited long enough. Make love to me.” Her leg hooked around him bringing him closer.
His eyes slammed shut as he slowly slid inside her. *Finally*
Her nails raked across his back. Now that they were finally here, she was impatient. She wanted him to move faster. They waited so long. She was desperate for release. She met each of his trusts with one of her own. He gripped her hip to change their angle and her thoughts went spinning away.
He growled. Her inner walls started to tighten around him. “You feel so good.” He moved a hand between them to press a finger against her clit. She seized his lips. His tongue matched the rhythm of their bodies. Her scream was lost in the cavern of his mouth.
Her walls clamped down on him pushing him over the edge. “Cordelia!” He collapsed on her chest. His ability to move returned as he felt her laying butterfly kisses on his neck and shoulder. He lifted his head.
She looked up into his beautiful brown eyes. She could feel him still inside her. “I love you Angel.”
He wiped away the tear sliding down her cheek. “I love you.” She started giggling. “What’s so funny?”
“Us. This.”
“What?”
She kissed away the fear that suddenly flared up in his eyes. “I love you.”
“And that’s funny how?”
“Not that. I’m laughing because we’re both idiots.”
“Excuse me?”
“We’ve both been torturing ourselves because we were too afraid to be honest about our feelings.” She ran her fingers down his back to cup his butt. “We could have been doing this sooner.”
He mumbled against her lips. “You’re right. We’re both idiots.”
~***~
Angel’s hand searched for the warm body that had been blanketing him but found only empty space. He opened his eyes. He was alone. Panic seized him. *No. It wasn’t a dream. It was real. I know it was real.* He lifted the blanket. He was naked. The sound of the shower registered.
Cordelia closed her eyes and stepped under the spray. The hot water warmed her face and cascaded down her body. Her mind replayed the night before. A smile spread across her face as she remember Angel telling her ‘I love you’. They spent most of the night making love. She was exhausted but happier than she thought possible. She shrieked when the shower curtain suddenly flew open. “Jesus Christ Angel! You scared me. I am so gonna buy you a bell.”
“That makes two of us. Do you mind telling me why I woke up alone?”
She studied his hostile glare and immediately felt guilty. “I’m sorry. We have that early appointment with Bob. You looked so peaceful. I didn’t have the heart to wake you.” She nibbled on her bottom lip. His eyes were dark and hungry. “How can I make it up to you?”
Angel stepped into the shower. He fisted his hand in her hair and tilted her head back. “Don’t ever do it again.”
She smiled. Her hand stroked the length of his cock. “Did you miss me?”
“Yes” He growled as he plundered her mouth. His tongue battled hers for dominance. Her need for air forced her to break the kiss. He trailed kisses and nibbles down her neck. “I didn’t like waking up alone.”
She moaned. “I’m sorry.”
“I was afraid I dreamed the whole night.”
“Dream come true if you ask me.” Her hand increased its pace.
He lifted her up and pressed her to the shower wall. Her legs wrapped around his waist. “I need to be inside you.” She reached between them to guide him to her center. He entered her in one solid thrust. He set a hard, fast rhythm.
The sound of running water mixed with their moans and growls. He clutched her ass in a bruising grip slamming into her.
Her head flew back as she screamed her release. He soon followed spilling his seed inside her. He took a few calming breaths before he let her slide down the wall.
She whimpered as he slipped from her body. “Mmmm” She rubbed her cheek on his chest.
“Now that’s how we should start every morning.”
“I couldn’t agree more.”
“Let’s go back to bed.”
“Angel, we still have an appointment with Bob followed by group.”
“Do we have to?”
“Yes”
“I don’t like him.”
“Angel”
“He wanted you out of my bed.”
“That’s not fair. He just wanted..”
“Whatever” He made his kicked puppy face.
“You’re such a dork. C’mon we’re gonna be late if we don’t hurry.”
“I don’t wanna.” He tightened his arms. “Can’t we call in sick?”
“No” She twisted out of his arms and stepped out of the shower.
Angel grabbed the towel from her hands and took over drying her body. His gentle rubbing turned into teasing and cupping.
“Don’t start something we can’t finish.”
He dropped the towel and pulled her closer. “Oh I can finish.” He threw her over his shoulder. He slapped her butt. “Stop squirming.”
“Angel, put me down!”
“Sure” He tossed her onto the bed and climbed on top of her. “Now where were we?”
She gritted her teeth. “We were getting ready to leave.”
“Really?” His hands began to wander. “No. I think we were here.” His lips descended.
She turned her head. “Angel. We have an appointment with Bob and we are NOT going to miss it.” She yanked his hair to hiss in his ear. “There are people counting on us. Now get up.” She released her grip.
He looked down into her eyes. “I’m sorry Cor. I remember. I just..”
“I know. I would love nothing more than to stay in bed with you but..”
“We have a..an appointment.” He blew out a frustrated breath. *Stupid case* “I still don’t like him.”
“Be nice.”
“I’ll try but I’m not making any promises.”
She pulled him down for a kiss. Her tongue tentatively reached out and began to explore his mouth. She could feel him hard against her thigh. Against her good intentions, her legs opened for him. Her nails dug into his back as he thrust inside her. “Angel!”
“I need you.” She wrapped her legs around him letting him go deeper.
“Oh God!” His lips engulfed a nipple. The pull of his lips and feel of his cock sliding in and out started a wonderful burn. “Angel don’t stop.”
He moved to nibble on her ear. “Never. I’ll never stop making love to you.”
“God!” Her teeth clamped down on his shoulder. Hard.
Her bite sent him unexpectedly over the edge. Before she could moan at the loss, his lips and fingers replaced his cock. Two fingers thrust inside her and twisted. His tongue gently flicked her clit. His fingers stroked her inner walls as she exploded. “Angel!”
He kissed his way up her body. “We’re late.”
She giggled. “It’s all your fault. I was trying to be good.”
“I’m such a bad influence. I’m so ashamed.”
“Yeah. I can tell by the smile on your face.”
He rolled his eyes. “Fine. We’ll get dressed and go see Bob.”
“That’s a good boy.”
“Just one more kiss?”
“No way. Those lips of yours are dangerous.”
He stood up. “Fine. Let’s go see the stupid quack.”