Part 40<\/b><\/p>\n
Angel leaned up against the alley wall contemplating the woman moving in jerky steps around the alley.<\/p>\n
He finally figured it out. Cordelia had been jealous. But, he was going to have to make her madder before a dent was made in her denial. And he needed a crack in her armor if he was going to get what he wanted.<\/p>\n
Cordelia stomped around kicking at the ground, finally stopping to face the vampire. \u201cWhy didn\u2019t you tell me?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt wasn\u2019t any of your business.\u201d Angel lied.<\/p>\n
\u201cNOT my business? It\u2026\u201d Cordelia started to wave her arms around. Of course it was her business. It\u2026Cordelia stopped. Why was it her business? When there was threat of Angelus, it damn well was her business if Angel got groiny with anyone. But now, what was her reason? Angelus, right.<\/p>\n
\u201cThe fact that I don\u2019t have to worry about Angelus ever appearing is too my business.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel pushed up from the wall. \u201cWell now you know, no worries, so can I go back to Gabby?\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia\u2019s eyes widened as a rush of panic and rage flooded from her head to her toes. Did Angel just say what she thought he said? \u201cNO you can\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI thought I cleared up that issue.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYOU WILL NOT have sex with that blonde slut.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel moved until he was inches away from Cordelia. \u201cWhy not?\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia blinked, trying to think of any rational reason. The Gabby is a Ho didn\u2019t seem to bother the vampire. \u201cSex in the workplace, not a good thing, she\u2019s your seer.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI think I could handle having sex with my seer. I\u2019ve always wanted to.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia stepped back. Doyle and Angel, eww.<\/p>\n
Angel chuckled at her expression, stepping forward again. \u201cNot Doyle, \u201d He brushed at an angry strain of hair, tucking it behind Cordelia\u2019s ear, dropping his finger to trace along the young woman\u2019s neck resting lightly on her pulse point.<\/p>\n
It was vibrating. God, she was so alive. \u201cDoyle hasn\u2019t been my only seer, Cordelia, and the thought of making love to my very beautiful seer has kept me up many nights.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia felt Angel\u2019s low words ripple across her body, creating goose bumps and tremors along her panicky nerves. \u201c I\u2019m not your seer, Gabriel is.\u201d She whispered wishing that she could drag her eyes away from Angel\u2019s deep brown ones. The intensity was scaring her. Cordelia bit her lip as she felt the breaking down of her defenses as his words caressed her.<\/p>\n
Angel brushed a wide thumb across Cordy\u2019s lips soothing their trembling. \u201cI told you that the visions weren\u2019t why I needed you, that they were just an after market extra. Nothing\u2019s changed except now it\u2019s the thought making love to a very beautiful Immortal that keeps me up nights.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia stepped away from Angel\u2019s touch. Her mind flying, her heart hurting as it pounded against her chest, a warm liquid pooling in her belly. She could no longer run from the question. \u201cWhy?\u201d Her tongue wetting her lips nervously scared of the answer but needing to hear it.<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause, I love you\u2026I\u2019m in love with you.\u201d Angel corrected not wanting any misunderstandings.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou love me? IN LOVE? Since when?\u201d She choked out her whisper.<\/p>\n
Angel chuckled. \u201cI\u2019m not really sure. I knew that I needed you when you were suffering from Vocah\u2019s curse. I knew that you were my best friend when I actually went shopping and bought all those clothes for you just to get you to smile at me again. I knew that I could never loose you when you disappeared into Pylea, I knew that I loved you when the sadness and pain of Buffy\u2019s death was tempered with the knowledge that I had saved you- that I could move on because of you- that I wanted to- that you were who I thought about when I thought of home.<\/p>\n
The \u2018in love\u2019 part I knew because of jealousy. It took me wanting to kill Duncan to realize that all of the above was screaming that I was in love with you that I needed to be the only one to protect you, love you,\u201d Angel brought his hand up to caress her cheek. \u201cThe only one to touch you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia\u2019s lips worked double time. She was right to be scared of Angel\u2019s answer just like she knew it was the only answer she wanted, needed to hear. Angel was in love with her. Wow. Which she guessed made things a little bit easier now that she had realized while struggling to listen to Angel\u2019s words that she was in love with him, too.<\/p>\n
Cordelia scrunched up her face and smacked the vampire.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat was that for? I just told you that I loved you.\u201d Angel grumbled.<\/p>\n
\u201cYeah, after you told me that you wanted to have sex with that blonde bimbo and spent the whole evening staring down her dress.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI never said I wanted to have sex with her, I said I could if I wanted to. I don\u2019t want to.\u201d Angel defended.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, so what- you were staring at her breasts for what reason?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMerely a precaution, I was scared that they would jump out and attack me. Had to be ready to duck.\u201d Angel shivered.<\/p>\n
Cordelia narrowed her eyes but couldn\u2019t stop her giggles at the comical expression of fear on Angel\u2019s face.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy,\u201d Angel reached out for the young woman. \u201cYou haven\u2019t said how you feel about me loving you. You were jealous of Gabriel, does that mean you love me too.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHmmph. I wasn\u2019t jealous.\u201d Cordelia let Angel encircle her waist. Her hands reaching up to rest on his chest, \u201cbut if you so much as glance at her boobs again, I\u2019ll stake you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJesus, Cordy, that\u2019s all you can see of her. There out to there and up to there.\u201d His hands leaving Cordelia to make wild exaggerated motions in the air.<\/p>\n
Cordelia laughed. \u201cSo, you\u2019re not a breast man.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, I am, just very selective. I\u2019m limited to appreciating only one beautiful pair that look so tempting peeking out of my robe.\u201d Angel reclaimed her waist with one strong arm pulling her flush against him, while his other hand moved under her jacket to gently traced the side of Cordelia\u2019s breast, palming at the delicious weight.<\/p>\n
\u201cThose, I could see and taste all night.\u201d He whispered lowly. Angel wanted to cry out as Cordelia pressed the weight further into his palm. He told her that he loved her, he was touching her, and she wasn\u2019t running.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh,\u201d Cordelia gasped as Angel\u2019s thumb started to slowly rub and circle her straining nipple through the cotton material. Her hands gripped Angel\u2019s shoulders as Angel leaned in brushing his lips against her neck. \u201cYou haven\u2019t answered my question.\u201d Angel nipped into her throat.<\/p>\n
\u201cUh, oh,\u201d Cordelia wiggled her hips closer. \u201cI.. mmm.\u201d She bit her lips as Angel\u2019s fingers found there way under her blouse and his mouth sucked on the tender flesh of her ear. She gasped as his fingers lightly pinched at her nipple. \u201clove\u2026you\u2026too.\u201d She struggled with the words, her breath raspy from the heat taking over her belly and spreading down to her toes.<\/p>\n
Cordelia moaned the loss of Angel\u2019s lips and hands. She blinked as his face loomed over hers a beautiful smile overcoming his face. Angel cradled her chin in his hands lifting her lips to his. Cordelia sunk into the kiss, her hands traveling up to scratch at the short hairs on Angel\u2019s neck. She mimicked Angel\u2019s movements, savoring the cool pressure sucking and pressing against her, she welcomed his exploring tongue, her own skating around his tasting a hint of champagne and all of the vampire. There was nothing in her world but the sensations of the kiss. It felt so right and as amazing as the heat spreading through out her body.<\/p>\n
Angel savored the return of the warm soft silk of Cordelia\u2019s mouth, his tongue searched for more of the flavor of Cordy. This was bliss, this was pleasure, this was coming home, all magnified by the words bouncing around his mind. Cordy said she loved him. She was his. He growled drawing the kiss deeper, claiming Cordelia with every touch of his lips.<\/p>\n
Cordelia drew her hands from the back of his head, tracing her fingers to his jaw, pressing her thumbs to where there lips were joined, moving her head slightly away, taking a deep breath. Angel smiled. \u201cSorry,\u201d he nipped at the thumb that was on his lips, his tongue swirling around the digit, bringing into his mouth.<\/p>\n
Cordelia chuckled. \u201cSuffocation by kiss wouldn\u2019t be so bad, and sure I\u2019d live again, but in between I\u2019d miss all the fun.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel heard the desire coating her words; it rang in his ears triggering a distinct need to get out of the alley before he had her against the wall.<\/p>\n
Angel caressed her hair back resting his forehead on hers. \u201cCan we call it night?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe can go home, but I don\u2019t think we should call it night just yet.\u201d She smiled.<\/p>\n
Angel grinned at the seductive smirk, leaning back in for another taste of her smile. \u201cI know we won\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n
Part 41<\/b><\/p>\n
Wesley met the couple at the back door. \u201cGood, I was looking for you both.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWesley, Cordy and I are leaving now. Here,\u201d Angel pulled out his wallet. \u201cTake care of it, get a ride back with the Immortals.\u201d Angel moved to push Cordelia past.<\/p>\n
Wesley looked at the wallet and then at Angel\u2019s hands possessively on Cordelia\u2019s back. \u201cAngel, no, you can\u2019t go yet.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel paused to look over his shoulder. \u201cWe are.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel, you can\u2019t.\u201d Wesley waved Lorne over.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou beckoned so sweetly.\u201d Lorne appeared at Wesley\u2019s side.<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel needs to get up there,\u201d Wesley pointed to the stage.<\/p>\n
\u201cLove bug, you know I\u2019d do anything for the boss of Angel\u2019s Investigation without question, except that. I need a really good reason to subject my paying customers to the big guys particular renditions.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel says that a spell was done while he was away, one that made his soul permanent. We need to know.\u201d<\/p>\n
Lorne\u2019s red eyes widened as he took in Cordelia\u2019s swollen lips and the vampire\u2019s impatience fidgeting, \u201cAmore is always a good reason.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWait.\u201d Cordelia called.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy, we need to have Lorne read Angel.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m not arguing, I\u2019m just offering the option of him doing it here- you know without a microphone.\u201d<\/p>\n
Wesley nodded. \u201cI see your point no reason to for everyone to have to hear Angel.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDoesn\u2019t change the fact that I do.\u201d Lorne shivered, \u201cbut, hey, for love, I\u2019m all ears. Pick a tune Angel cakes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel glared at all of them. \u201cIt wasn\u2019t that bad.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt was pretty bad. Come on, Angel. Wesley\u2019s right, we should have your new soul status verified before\u2026unless you aren\u2019t concerned because you don\u2019t think I can give you a moment of pure contentment.\u201d She cocked a brow.<\/p>\n
\u201cRain drops keeping falling on my head but that doesn\u2019t mean my eyes will still be turning red, cryings not for me\u2026\u201d<\/i> Angel began to immediately sing.<\/p>\n
\u201cEnough,\u201d Lorne held up his hand. \u201cOkie dokie and all a go on the love front. Soul secure, looking pretty happy, right now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSee ya later, much later.\u201d Angel pulled Cordelia with him. He stopped.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d Cordelia asked.<\/p>\n
\u201cSecond thought lets go out the back. Wes, will tell them we\u2019ve gone, no reason to stop and waste time with goodnights.\u201d<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
\u201cWhere\u2019s Angel and Cordy?\u201d Fred asked.<\/p>\n
Wesley sat down tossing Angel\u2019s wallet on the table. \u201cThey decided to make it an early night. Angel said to stay and enjoy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cShe didn\u2019t stake him.\u201d Gunn raised his brows.<\/p>\n
\u201cThey seemed to have made up.\u201d Wesley poured himself a drink.<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel\u2019s gone, he can\u2019t go he said we could have sex.\u201d Gabriel looked around for the dark vampire.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m sorry, Gabby, but he has.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut\u2026\u201d tears pooled in her large blue eyes.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, shut up, would you.\u201d Fred shook her head. \u201cAngel doesn\u2019t want to have sex with you, he loves Cordy and she loves him. Geez, if anybody is having sex, they are.\u201d<\/p>\n
Gunn coughed. \u201cAre we sure about this spell?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAll confirmed.\u201d Lorne held up a glass.<\/p>\n
Gunn shook his head. \u201cWell, they\u2019ll be busy for awhile. I want more food, who wants more food.\u201d Gunn picked up Angel\u2019s wallet. \u201cIt\u2019s on the vamp.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDuncan?\u201d Methos leaned over to his friend.<\/p>\n
\u201cThe vampire was smarter than I thought.\u201d A slight sad smile appeared on the handsome Immortal\u2019s face. \u201cIt would\u2019ve been nice, hell, it was nice.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s not really over, Mac. Cordelia considers you family and from what I\u2019ve gathered from them,\u201d he nodded to the Wesley, Gunn, Fred and Lorne, \u201cthat means a helluva lot and something very much to value.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFamily,\u201d Duncan gave a soft chuckle. \u201cIt\u2019s been awhile since I\u2019ve had a one.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re thinking of Tess and Ritchie aren\u2019t you?\u201d<\/p>\n
Duncan\u2019s eyes clouded over. \u201cI miss her still,\u201d thinking about the mortal lover he had cherished with all his heart. The beautiful woman who died in the same burst of bullets that brought Ritchie his first death. Two people he had loved, two more that had died while he still lived. God it could be tiring.<\/p>\n
Methos patted Duncan\u2019s shoulder. \u201cLife is series of missed loved ones. But you can\u2019t let that stop you from living. Remember what Cordelia taught you- you love life pitfalls and all.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat I do, but the pitfalls- they really suck some times.\u201d Duncan gave a wry grin.<\/p>\n
Part 42<\/b><\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe we should\u2019ve stayed to at least say goodbye. It\u2019s kind of rude, just leaving like that.\u201d Cordelia fidgeted nervously in her seat.<\/p>\n
\u201cI left them my wallet.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cRight.\u201d Angel freely left his wallet, that was a bizarre thing, but no more bizarre than everything else that happened. She still was having a hard time believing it. Angel loved her. She loved him. It had been a lot easier to believe when she was in his arms. Then it felt so right. Now it just felt kind of weird and awkward. She sighed.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy?\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia\u2019s gaze jerked towards his concerned one.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy, what is it?\u201d Angel\u2019s concern was turning quickly into real worry. Cordelia had said that she loved him but could she have changed her mind, had she realized how very little he had to offer her.<\/p>\n
Cordelia gave a shaky smile, biting her lips. This was stupid. She shook her head. No more nervous awkwardness. Cordelia quickly scooted over closing the distance between her and Angel. Her hands going under the leather flaps of his coat, gripping around his waist, bringing her lips up to his neck.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou did say you loved me, right,\u201d she whispered in between kisses.<\/p>\n
The car served as Angel\u2019s right arm shot around Cordelia\u2019s waist pulling her body even closer. \u201cYes,\u201d he tucked her knees into his lap molding her even more tightly against him. Relief poured into his body and mind. Cordelia hadn\u2019t changed her mind. Was it possible that the touch of Cordelia\u2019s hands, her moist breathy kisses, her love could make his heart beat.<\/p>\n
Because something was happening to him- his body tingled with more than desire but an electricity that gave impressions of life. Wishful thinking, he knew, he wasn\u2019t alive, but it felt like it. His every sense was wrapped up in the woman huddled at his side, her ever sign of life became his. Cordelia was his life and his reason. God he loved her. Angel needed to be buried inside her warmth to extend the feeling make it last forever.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou did say that your soul was permanent.\u201d She licked up to the skin under his ear, lapping the fleshy tissue of his lope before trailing back down with her teeth.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy,\u201d Angel growled jerking at the steering wheel.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou didn\u2019t?\u201d she leaned her chin on his shoulder staring at him with changing hazel eyes. The dark couldn\u2019t hide the flickers of gold and brown that graced her eyes from Angel\u2019s.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy,\u201d Angel growled as Cordelia started to nip again at his neck.<\/p>\n
\u201cMmm.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re making it very difficult to drive.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia scooted closer, her fingers plucking at the buttons of his shirt. \u201cI was hoping to encourage you to be Mr. Speed Racer again. Just don\u2019t get us killed or arrested.\u201d She giggled into his shoulder.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m already dead and you\u2019re hard to kill.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYeh, but think of all that time wasted.\u201d She purred into his ear, her knee moving to straddle the vampire.<\/p>\n
\u201cNow, we could be killed.\u201d Angel moaned as the heat of Cordy\u2019s center seeped through the leather of her pants to scorch his body. He winced as he moved her off his lap. \u201cTwo minutes we\u2019ll be home, three minutes we\u2019ll be naked in bed. Patience.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPatience. This from the vampire that courted me by trying to kill my friend, make me jealous and then ravish me in an alley. Hmmph. Couldn\u2019t wait for the flowers and poetry to take effect, uh\u201d She slid to the passenger side, leaning up against the door. \u201cIt better be three minutes or I just might decide to get angry.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel shot his hand out pulling Cordy back against him pressing the gas urging the vehicle to go faster. \u201cIt worked.\u201d He risked taking his eyes off the road to nuzzle into her cheek.<\/p>\n
\u201cKissing, puppy dog look, you think you got it all figured out, don\u2019t you.\u201d She cuddled further into his chest.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou have two minutes left to be angry, you sure you want to waste them kissing me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThey\u2019re angry kisses.\u201d She whispered nipping and tonguing his jaw line. \u201cAre we there yet?\u201d<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Cordelia laughed. Angel had been serious. Less than two minutes later she was naked on his bed.<\/p>\n
She really didn\u2019t remember the disrobing; it started as soon as they reached the front door. Her coat was somewhere; she hoped it and her sword actually made it inside. She knew her shoes and pants ended up on the stairs with Angel\u2019s coat and shirt. Her own shirt lasted until the hallway. Her lacy bra and underwear were somewhere on the floor by the bed.<\/p>\n
Angel smiled, working the belt and zipper quickly. His boots were kicked off as the pants and boxers fell to the floor, his eyes never leaving the sprawled beauty on his bed. Finally. He felt like he had been waiting forever for this moment.<\/p>\n
He had dreamt of her lying in his bed, covering him with her long gorgeous limbs even as far back as when Doyle was alive. Then he just shoved them off as sexual dreams of a beautiful woman that he had daily contact with. His dream state was still occupied by the slim form of Buffy. The dreams of Cordelia were the exception not the rule.<\/p>\n
Then days, months, years past with friendship, danger, fear and growing need. The dreams had become full fledged fantasizes, taking over most of his sleeping hours. The only break when Darla had shown up. What a waste of a good night sleep and fantasy hours that had been. Angel still cringed at how close he had come to losing everything of value. Angel should have realized sooner what those dreams of Cordelia heralded. His subconscious knowing of what his mind kept denying.<\/p>\n
But Angel couldn\u2019t be upset about the wait. The knowledge that Cordelia loved him, somehow, against the possible, it made the wait worth everything and the anticipation enough to kill.<\/p>\n
Angel kneeled on the bed, his body sliding towards Cordelia\u2019s smile. His gaze fixed on her eyes. So damn beautiful, so damn his. Nothing, no one would ever take her away from him.<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel?\u201d Her laugher dying at the intensity of his stare.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know where to start.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cInsert A into slot B, is always good.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel laughed moving closer, settling on his elbow to study the woman. His hand flickered out to touch the expansive golden skin before him. \u201cOh, Cordy that\u2019s cheating.\u201d He teased up to the underside of her breast, marveling in the feel of the weight playing against his fingertips. So smooth. So beckoning, but then so was the slight swell of her belly, strong muscles hidden over sweet flesh, his hand moved to test his theory.<\/p>\n
He breathed in, tasting the air for her scent as he confirmed the firmness under the delicate skin that his fingers could pluck and caress. Angel really didn\u2019t know where to start, every part of her was enticing, her breast, her stomach, the indention of her waist, bringing the line of sight to the swell of her hips, the sweetness of the dark curls hiding the source of her heat, the curve of her thigh, the slope of the calf, the ankles, god, Cordelia even had gorgeous feet. Angel wasn\u2019t even going too look at her face or delve into the thick fragrance that cried for him to take her completely. If he started in either place he was gone before he even started.<\/p>\n
\u201cCheating?\u201d Cordelia gasped.<\/p>\n
\u201cCheating, going straight to the finish line without covering all the bases.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBases?\u201d Cordelia giggled. \u201cGod, you sound like Xander.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel growled sitting up. \u201cThat was low. In the future never mention that moron\u2019s name when you are naked. Better yet, just don\u2019t ever mention him.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia scooted up. \u201cPfft.\u201d Cordy waved away his warning. \u201c He was all for the baseball analogy. Cordy let\u2019s go to second base, how about third. Aw, strike out.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSecond base? Third?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGeez, first base.\u201d Cordelia demonstrated by kissing the vampire deeply, rolling her tongue in his mouth and along his lips. \u201c Second base, we kind of skipped as we\u2019re naked, third, well, I\u2019m willing to skip that and go straight for the home run.\u201d She wiggled her hips closer to Angel\u2019s.<\/p>\n
\u201cThis third base, home run you did with Xander? Did you love him?\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia considered the question seriously. She thought she had. But had she? What she thought was love wasn\u2019t anything like she was feeling now, like her life was somehow wrapped and intertwined with Angel, making her hurt when he hurt, sad when he was sad, smile when he smiled, begging to be the one to cause that smile, the need to feel him over her in her, possessing her, making her feel safe and loved with every caress and look.<\/p>\n
Cordelia licked at her lips. \u201cMaybe, but that\u2019s not really fair, Angel. I\u2019ve never questioned your love for Buffy, I\u2019ve never belittled what she was too you. I bitched and complained but I never questioned that your feelings were real. Don\u2019t do that to me.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel reached out cupping her chin. \u201cI love you, Cordy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d She smiled sadly.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou don\u2019t believe me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI do. I\u2026\u201d Cordelia took a deep breath. \u201cWeren\u2019t we supposed to be making love about now?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy, talk to me.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia brought her knees to her chest, encircling them with her arms. \u201cI\u2019d rather be making love.\u201d She said into her knees.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy,\u201d Angel lifted her face, wondering what had turned the sensual, teasing woman into a frightened little girl.<\/p>\n
\u201cHmmph,\u201d Cordelia blew out a long resigned breath. \u201cIt\u2019s nothing Angel, I just know that this wouldn\u2019t be happening if Buffy were still alive. But, I\u2019m okay with that, I love you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel leaned back. \u201cI\u2019m not okay with that. I love you Cordelia. YOU. This has been a long time in happening. I will freely admit that I loved Buffy, that her death was a harsh blow\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel,\u201d Cordelia lifted her hand to his clenched jaw. \u201cI know. I don\u2019t expect you to deny that, you can\u2019t. I know that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, Cordy, you don\u2019t know. I LOVED Buffy, I mourned her death and the dream of something that was never to be, but even before she was died, I was thinking of her in my past, she was my past, when I thought of home, my future, I thought of you, not her. I loved her. If she was alive, I would still love her, but I wouldn\u2019t need her like I need you, love her like I love you, you have become my life, my hope, my future, you are my best friend, not Buffy. If she showed up alive tomorrow, I would be happy, but it wouldn\u2019t change anything, I love you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel brushed at the tears squeezing out of Cordy\u2019s eyes. \u201cCordy, this isn\u2019t a rebound love or a comfort love, this\u2026what I feel for you is real and all encompassing, I want\u2026need you in my life always. And now, for us always can be a very long time and I want you there beside me, guiding me, loving me, giving me hope. Forever, Cordy, if you want.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, I want.\u201d Cordelia smiled as she wiped the tears from her eyes.<\/p>\n
\u201cExplore later, I need to be inside you now.\u201d Angel whispered covering Cordelia\u2019s body, kissing at the tear tracks along her cheek.<\/p>\n
Cordelia leaned into the vampire, pulling him closer, adjusting her hips and thighs in an instinctual welcoming dance. Her hips rose from the bed as Angel\u2019s hand brought her ass off the bed, bringing her closer.<\/p>\n
Cordelia gasped, sighed, and keened as Angel filled her completely. Cordy\u2019s long legs wrapped around the vampire\u2019s waist urging for something more.<\/p>\n
Angel growled as the heat encompassed him, the tightness was velvety smooth, the muscles clasping him in a soft perfect glove. It was so right. He almost didn\u2019t want to move, just wanting to soak in the heat surrounding him, living through the beating heart against his chest and the gasping breaths against his cool skin. Some primeval instinct recognized that this is what it felt like to be alive.<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel.\u201d Cordelia bit into his shoulder, her hips starting to jerk.<\/p>\n
Oh god, the friction, this was truly life, the heat moving underneath him, teasing, welcoming, demanding, accepting. He stroked within the satin prison, wanting to stay forever but need caused him to move, to leave, to push, to only touch at the heaven, only to press back in making the glimpse of heaven the all more needed and desired. He wanted it all.<\/p>\n
Cordelia\u2019s fingernails scratched down the cool planes of Angel\u2019s strong back, reveling in the twitch of muscle under each trail. She squeezed and pushed wanting needing more. \u201cAngel.\u201d She sucked and whispered into his neck.<\/p>\n
The vampire growled, his hands, his fingers manipulating the small of her back lifting her off the bed as his thrusts became stronger, more frantic.<\/p>\n
Cordelia\u2019s mouth continued its advances on every piece of flesh she could taste.<\/p>\n
\u201cCor.\u201d Angel leaned up on his elbows.<\/p>\n
Cordelia\u2019s desire laden eyes blinked on the vampire. She struggled to squirm to do anything to get the movement back.<\/p>\n
\u201cLook at me.\u201d Angel demanded.<\/p>\n
Cordelia blinked again trying to focus.<\/p>\n
\u201cI love you only you, remember, know it, forever.\u201d He demanded pushing his hips to move ramming his body further into Cordy\u2019s, possessing her, forcing her to accept him deep inside. \u201cMine.\u201d He growled driving in again.<\/p>\n
Cordelia clutched at his broad shoulders, cognizant of the dryness against her sweaty fingers, but his skin was hot as if Angel had soaked up every part of her. She wanted to bring him closer, she wanted to break the unbearable tension in her nerves. Her womb was about to explode along with every part of her. She dug her nails into Angel\u2019s skin trying to fight the devastation of her being, trying to keep her consciousness, trying to reach where she wanted to be, where she wanted Angel to be. Her hips moved faster, her channel tightening, her breath labored, her whimpers pressed against the flesh above her.<\/p>\n
Angel\u2019s kisses were feverish, tasting every inch of Cordelia\u2019s face and neck, finally latching on the her lips. Sucking in her breath, and tasting her moans. Cordelia shouted out a silent scream as her body stilled the dam bursting flooding her with a high pleasure, it almost hurt in its intensity. Her body shuddered as her inner muscles clasped in a frantic rhythm, squeezing at Angel.<\/p>\n
Angel growled slamming his hips into the velvet shuddering vice, he pushed deeper, his seed bursting in release. His body kept moving until there was nothing left to give except kisses. Angel rolled over taking Cordelia with him, his hands trailing gently up and down her spine, soothing the tremors that still flickered under her skin. Cordelia flopped down on his hard body, draping her tired arms and legs along his sides. \u201cI love you.\u201d She whispered into his neck. \u201cI\u2019m sleepy.\u201d She yawned, kissing at his neck.<\/p>\n
\u201cI love you,\u201d he brought his chin down against her hair. \u201cAnd sleep.\u201d He kissed the crown of her head gently.<\/p>\n