Chapter 15<\/b><\/p>\n
Cordelia snuggled the small infant closer. \u201cI don\u2019t get, honey. Why hasn\u2019t daddy K..i..l..l\u2026e\u2026d Uncle Spike yet or at least b..e..a\u2026t him up.\u201d Cordelia stared back through the window.<\/p>\n
She could barely make out the figures in the garden, the vampires blended into the darkness becoming part of it as only creatures of the night can. If it wasn\u2019t for the glowing embers of a cigarette moving rhythmically through the air, she might have missed them.<\/p>\n
\u201cI mean, we\u2019re talking about B\u2026u\u2026f\u2026f\u2026y and Uncle Spike having\u2026.s\u2026e\u2026.x.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia let the heavy curtain fall and sat on the bed. \u201cI don\u2019t understand, honey. Daddy doesn\u2019t even seemed to be mad, just not pleased. What kind of reaction is that? *Blurslurp*,\u201d pressing her lips against the child\u2019s chubby cheek and blowing.<\/p>\n
\u201cHmm, I ask.\u201d Smiling at the child\u2019s gurgled response. \u201cAre you tired? I\u2019m tired. Too much mind-boggling stuff happened tonight for me to figure out. Let\u2019s go to sleep, sweetheart.\u201d Cordelia yawned. Cordelia settled on the bed, lying Connor next to her. \u201cStupid dress.\u201d Tugging at the skirt to give her legs room to curl up. Trying not to think about the one thing she did figure out. But it was hard.<\/p>\n
How did she forget that she loved her best friend and why wasn\u2019t her best friend more upset that the love of his life was having sex with Spike? That would only make sense if Angel was over Buffy, but how do you get over the love of your life, unless she wasn\u2019t really the love of your life. Cordelia closed her eyes.<\/p>\n
Hope and just a little bit of fear filled her mind as she desperately tried not to think about that possibility and what it could mean.<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Having vampire senses had its advantages, but not all the time.<\/p>\n
There were times that Angel wished he hadn\u2019t heard the things he heard, or smelled some of the beings that he encountered. Some beings just shouldn\u2019t be smelt. They stunk. But right then as he was walking up the staircase, Angel was grateful for the abilities.<\/p>\n
Every step he took closer to his suite brought their scent to him, the sound of their heartbeats. Angel paused and closed his eyes. He didn\u2019t have to see them to know the picture they made. Their scents were intermingled; their heartbeats slow and steady close to each other.<\/p>\n
Angel started to hurry, the smells and sounds were wonderful but the sight was even better. How he loved to look at Cordelia and Connor together sleeping. Both so alive, so beautiful, so innocent and when they were together like that, he could believe that anything was possible. It was hard not to believe with two perfect miracles in one bed.<\/p>\n
Angel picked up Connor from the safety of the pillow and Cordelia\u2019s body. The infant opened his eyes once, yawned and smiled, before falling back to sleep. It was a smile. Cordy had told him to just ignore the books that said it was gas. Angel smiled back to his son placing him gently in the bassinet after kissing him on his forehead.<\/p>\n
Angel went back into the bedroom and stood in the doorway. Cordelia hadn\u2019t moved, her body still curled up, the skirt of her long gown twisted around her legs. She couldn\u2019t be comfortable.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy.\u201d Nudging at her shoulder. \u201cCordy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGo away, Dennis.\u201d She mumbled into the pillow.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy,\u201d Angel increased the pressure of his hand slightly.<\/p>\n
\u201cTired, Dennis. Go away\u2026\u201d She stopped her mumbling as soon as she felt her hand hit cold firm flesh. Cordelia turned her head slightly, one eye squinting open. \u201cAngel, did I just hit you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSorry,\u201d She turned back into the pillow.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy, come on.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo. Sleep. Don\u2019t want to move.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy, don\u2019t you want to change.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo much for liking my dress.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI like your dress, but it doesn\u2019t look very comfortable to sleep in. Don\u2019t you want to change?\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia squirmed. All of a sudden the bodice of the dress tightened, the material of the skirt felt heavy and unyielding. She moved again trying to get comfortable, but the dress was making it impossible. She would never get back to sleep now. Cordelia squished at the pillow in another attempt. She groaned. \u201cButtons, couldn\u2019t\u2026.\u201d slapping the pillow. \u201cStupid buttons, don\u2019t work.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy, come on get up.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDon\u2019t make me, tired.\u201d She mumbled back into the pillow.<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay, just turn over a little then.\u201d Angel sat on the bed and moved her.<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel,\u201d grumbling and pouting into the pillow.<\/p>\n
\u201cShh.\u201d Angel turned her further on her stomach and straightening her legs out. \u201cThat wasn\u2019t so bad now, was it?\u201d<\/p>\n
Even with his hearing, Angel couldn\u2019t make out what she had mumbled. But it sounded an awful lot like a curse.<\/p>\n
Angel leaned in and quickly released the buttons, resisting the urge to be slow and teasing or use his fangs. The sides of the dress opened to reveal a spandex red band. Cordelia twitched as Angel\u2019s fingers brushed against her flesh as he unclasped the bra. She sighed into the pillow preparing to curl back at the disappearance of the bindings around her chest. \u201cNot yet.\u201d<\/p>\n
More grumbling came from her lips. \u201cHelp me a little here.\u201d Angel said softly. Cordelia shifted minimally as Angel drew the dress down her body revealing more skin as he went. \u201cOne more time.\u201d With a swift move, Angel pulled the dress completely from Cordelia\u2019s body and tossed it on the floor.<\/p>\n
Angel stared. Warm and subtle flesh, delicate glowing skin covering the angle of shoulder blades, the hint of soft flesh pressing out from the chest, the curve of the spine dipping low only to curve back up into firm sweet buttocks. The scene only interrupted by red lace panties and a sun tattoo resting above, neither jarring the scene just bringing more attention to the delicious rise of the buttocks. Angel wanted to draw the beauty before him; he really wanted to touch it.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhere you going?\u201d Mumbling came from the pillow.<\/p>\n
\u201cTo get you a shirt.\u201d Pulling a t- shirt from his dresser. \u201cYou\u2019re going to need to move again, just a little.\u201d Sitting back on the bed.<\/p>\n
Cordelia buried herself further into the mattress in protest.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel, why did you ask if I could fall in love with a vampire?\u201d Her voice muffled by the pillow, her eyes still closed, her body not moving.<\/p>\n
Angel pulled his hands back. \u201cI wanted to know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh.\u201d Cordelia paused. \u201cI\u2019ve been thinking.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019ve been sleeping.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDreaming then.\u201d Still hidden in the pillow, but her voice clear. \u201cCould you ever fall in love with a woman other than Buffy?\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel twisted his hands in the shirt he was holding, thinking back to his question in the cab and her answer.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know. Maybe. She would have to be only mostly human though, I don\u2019t know why, I just think it\u2019s important. She would have to be courageous, loving, extraordinary- a champion of sorts, help the helpless type. She would also have to be frustrating, bossy and sometime annoying. She would have to know exactly what temperature to heat my blood and the exact amount of cinnamon to put in it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou hate cinnamon in your blood.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYeah, but she would have to put it in anyway, it\u2019s all part of the loving and frustrating traits.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHmmph.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cShe would have to love my son as much as I do, she would have to love me as much as I love her and she would have to promise to stay with me forever. She would have to be my best friend. And she would have to know that my soul is permanent, that our love would only be joyful, not dangerous to our family\u2026.oh, and not be mad at me for not telling her sooner.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel saw it and heard it. The slight catch in her breathing, the shivers along the glowing skin. Cordelia turned her head on the pillow to study Angel for a very long minute. \u201cHave you found her?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI think so, what do you think?\u201d Finally, releasing the shirt he had balled in his hands, reaching out to brush a curl from Cordelia\u2019s face.<\/p>\n
\u201cI think- I need you to kiss me again.\u201d Cordelia rolled over onto her back.<\/p>\n
\u201cNow, you can move?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s all in the motivation, Angel\u201d<\/p>\n
Chapter 16<\/b><\/p>\n
Angel leaned in bracing his body over Cordelia\u2019s barely touching. He was doing it again, encompassing all the space around her, his dark eyes boring into hers.<\/p>\n
But unlike before, Cordelia didn\u2019t feel trapped; she wanted to feel him overwhelm her. Angel had taken over her heart already, now it was finally time for him to take the rest. She smiled. \u201cAngel.\u201d Caressing the handsome face.<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t think I can stay awake for two days.\u201d Cordelia leaned up on her elbows, her smile gone as Angel moved away. \u201cWhere are you going?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m sorry, you\u2019re tired.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re attempting the sense of humor thing right now, right?\u201d Raising her brows.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy, you\u2026.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGeez, what\u2019s with you, two days or two minutes in a closet, isn\u2019t there an inbetween option. Fine.\u201d She got up pulling at his arm.<\/p>\n
\u201cNow, where are YOU going?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWE are going to the closet. I\u2019m getting something out this little epiphany, even its only two minutes worth.\u201d Tugging at the vampire to get off the bed.<\/p>\n
Angel jerked once and in an instant Cordelia was back in her original position, only this time Angel\u2019s long legs covered hers, trapping her. \u201cYou\u2019re not going anywhere.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI hadn\u2019t planned on it.\u201d She smiled. \u201cAre you ever going to kiss me?\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel\u2019s thumb rubbed along Cordelia\u2019s bottom lip. He smiled. \u201cMaybe.\u201d His mouth quickly followed the trail his thumb had made before Cordelia could think of a retort.<\/p>\n
Cordelia sighed, caressing her hand up Angel\u2019s arm to his shoulder cupping around his neck pulling him even more firmly over her body. Lips moved together, tongues explored. Angel moved totally covering the smaller body under him. A delicate hand joined the other around his neck, fingers scratching and tugging at the thickness of the hair on the back of his head. Knicks and kisses were placed along the underside of her jaw up to her earlobe as Angel released Cordelia allowing her to take a breath.<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel\u201d Murmuring, Cordelia\u2019s arms tightening as she relished the sound of his name on her lips. Angel\u2019s name, not some long dead spirit or Angelus\u2019, but Angel\u2018s. She laughed. Angel lifted his head, looking at the giggling young woman, his brows raised in question. \u201cIt\u2019s us, Angel, us, not some tortured spirits or some ruse to fool evil old vamps, it\u2019s us\u2026we\u2019re kissing. It\u2019s real.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel smiled widely, his broad hands brushing back Cordelia\u2019s hair, trying to get a better look at the joy in her eyes. He leaned in. \u201cWe\u2019re doing more than just kissing.\u201d His mouth settled back over hers, only to leave, trailing moist kisses along her throat, his tongue licking soaking in the flavor of her skin.<\/p>\n
With half closed eyes, Cordelia attempted to watch Angel\u2019s head descend along her body. But, the sensations were too much; she closed her eyes and pressed into the mattress, hands still entwined in Angel\u2019s hair. She gasped. Angel was doing it. He was slowly kissing and tasting every inch of her.<\/p>\n
The ever-increasing fragrance of Cordelia\u2019s arousal drew Angel downward like a magnet. It was in the air all around him, he needed to get to the source.<\/p>\n
Cordelia tensed, she could feel the bare whisper of a caress along her center. Her anticipation was almost frightening. Her hips jerked at the first wet broad stroke.<\/p>\n
A low growl emerged from Angel\u2019s throat as he took in the scent and tasted the moisture. He wanted to roll around in it, cover himself, take it in his body, carry it around with him always, it was intoxicating, pure Cordelia and it was for him.<\/p>\n
Cordelia clutched at the sheets, twisting the material in her fists. Angel was sucking her womb empty, only to replace her juices with sparks of electricity and intense pleasure. \u201cOh god, Angel.\u201d She cried. Angel didn\u2019t stop as her muscles contracted and her body trembled. He just slowed, his strong hand stroking and soothing the tremors. Angel didn\u2019t want to leave, but he knew there was more. He lifted his head, trailing back up Cordelia\u2019s body.<\/p>\n
Cordelia slowly opened her eyes into Angel\u2019s intense stare, she bit at her lips, and a slight blush graced her face. \u201cAngel.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d He twirled, a soft strain of dark silk in his fingers.<\/p>\n
The pink of her face got brighter. \u201c You said that you wanted to be inside me, to fill me?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI recall saying something like that.\u201d Smiling.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhen?\u201d<\/p>\n
The chuckle choked the growl rising from his throat. \u201cI was thinking about now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNow\u2019s good.\u201d Licking her lip.<\/p>\n
Angel moved quickly, his clothes falling to the ground.<\/p>\n
\u201cWait.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel stilled, his chest bare, his hands on his pants.<\/p>\n
Cordelia scooted towards him, not looking up, pushing away his hands. Her fingers fumbled at the fly. Her teeth chewing on her bottom lip as her hands moved under the waistband of both pants and boxers. Fingernails and palms stroked down hard muscle covered by cool skin as the material was removed. Her nervous biting stopped, Cordelia smiled and leaned in.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy,\u201d Angel stumbled at the sudden wet warmth that encased him. The fingers were now clutching on his backside pulling him closer. A hand was moving gently, but manipulatively around his thigh only to start kneading at the base of his shaft, reaching up even further to caress the sacks behind as the wet heat traveled up and down, swallowing him.<\/p>\n
Angel\u2019s fingers ran through Cordelia\u2019s hair, clutching and tightening the strains around his forming fist. He pushed. \u201cIn you now,\u201d his words low barely distinguishable from the growl.<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay,\u201d Cordy\u2019s voice almost as low. Angel again covered her body, this time his hands went to separate her thighs, only to stop in that goal and change immediately to cupping her ass. Cordelia\u2019s legs had already locked around the vampire\u2019s hips. Angel stilled. Cordelia shook her head. \u201cDon\u2019t ask, just do it.\u201d She bit her lip and waited. \u201cAngel.\u201d Gasping as he filled her completely. \u201cOh god.\u201d Angel stilled again reveling in the feeling of being imbedded in the heat of Cordelia. He dropped small kisses on her face.<\/p>\n
She smiled and started to move her hips. Angel felt her action and responded. His thrusts were hard and fast, forgetting momentarily the fragility of the body under him. He stopped as the remembrance hit him.<\/p>\n
Cordelia pulled at him jerking her hips upward. \u201cDon\u2019t stop, please.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFill me completely. You want it, I want it, do it.\u201d She moved more forcibly.<\/p>\n
Angel growled and pushed and thrust. And Cordelia met every single one, tightening her channel at each action. Cordelia clasped on to her only anchor. Her fingernails clenched into Angel\u2019s shoulders as she moved in concert with the storm within and around her. The tidal wave peaked, Cordelia didn\u2019t know where she was anymore, she just held on. \u201cAngel.\u201d The wave was crashing, she was going under. The only thing that saved her from drowning was that Angel went with her. His body fell heavy on top of hers.<\/p>\n
They stayed in that position for longer than a moment. Arms wrapped tightly against each other, holding on to their own personal life preservers. Cordelia was the first to move, even if it was only a centimeter. \u201cI love you, Angel.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel couldn\u2019t help it. He tried to force down his demon, but her words triggered it. In gameface he leaned over. \u201cYou will never leave me.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia glanced up somewhat surprised at the \u2018grr\u2019 show. \u201cDuh. I promised didn\u2019t I?\u201d<\/p>\n
Instantly the vampire visage was gone, leaving a handsome man with a wide amazed smile. \u201cYes, you did. I love you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Chapter 17<\/b><\/p>\n
Cordelia stretched out her arm. She was alone in the bed. She wasn\u2019t supposed to be alone. Her hand patted more of the surrounding area. Nothing. Cordelia sat up and looked around.<\/p>\n
Had it just been a dream? But she was naked in Angel\u2019s bed. Where was Angel?<\/p>\n
\u201cHi.\u201d<\/p>\n
Her eyes shot to the doorway of the bedroom. Cordelia brought the sheet up around her getting up. \u201cHi.\u201d A slight blush crept up Cordelia\u2019s face. It hadn\u2019t been a dream. Angel loved her, she loved him, they made love- it had been wonderful. The thing was she wasn\u2019t at all sure what to do now.<\/p>\n
Her eyes latched on to the baby in Angel\u2019s arms. \u201cHas Connor been fed yet?\u201d Hoping for something familiar to do.<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia scrunched up her face. \u201cBath?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes. I was about to put him back to bed, but he knew you were awake and he wanted a kiss.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cConnor told you that?\u201d Smiling at the thought, her nervousness gone at Angel’s smile.<\/p>\n
Angel shrugged. \u201cYep.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat about you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI can wait\u2026for about a second, so, hurry up and give Connor his kiss, so I can get mine.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia laughed, reaching for the small child. \u201cHow’s my little guy this morning? Hmm.\u201d Kissing the soft chubby cheek. Connor squealed. Cordelia caught his waving tiny hand and blew raspberries into. \u201cSo, Connor, daddy wants a kiss also, should I give him one?\u201d<\/p>\n
Connor gurgled and waved his hand against her cheek. \u201cThat was a yes, in case you didn\u2019t understand.\u201d Angel took the baby back laying him in the crib. \u201cWasn\u2019t it, Connor?\u201d Placing the stuffed bear next to the child\u2019s hands. \u201cIt was definitely a yes.\u201d Angel turned back to Cordelia who had remained standing in the doorway.<\/p>\n
\u201cWell, then I guess I\u2019ll just have to kiss you then.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes, you will.\u201d Angel moved quickly. Cordelia\u2019s laugher stopped as she was engulfed in the kiss. Angel\u2019s lips and tongue were acting in perfect harmony with hers. Small butterflies danced in Cordelia\u2019s belly as her earlier desires were re-ignited. Cordelia shivered as a firm hand caressed down to the small of her back pressing her closer to the hard body that held her. The sheet disappearing immediately. Cordelia clutched at Angel\u2019s shirt. She looked up. \u201cYou\u2019re dressed.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t think the others would appreciate me fixing Connor\u2019s bottle in the nude.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know, Fred might, after she got up from the floor.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angel laughed, kissing Cordelia again, pushing her back towards the bed.<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel,\u201d Cordelia mumbled against his lips.<\/p>\n
\u201cMmm.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cTake your clothes off.\u201d Her hands already at his waistband.<\/p>\n