***<\/p>\n
The vampire backed away from the door going back to the stairs. It was a potentially tense moment but averted by rationalization and hopeful thinking.<\/p>\n
He hurried up to the bedroom. She would be back. He had a major rage moment when he woke up and realized that Cordelia was absent. Well, after his major chuckle moment. God, he had been stupid.<\/p>\n
The vampire settled his self on the bed and waited. He buried his head into the pillow as he scented her coming into the room. Patience, he willed. Patience.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re awake. Can\u2019t fool me.\u201d She brushed his shoulder.<\/p>\n
\u201cI didn\u2019t think you\u2019d appreciate me dragging you out of Wesley\u2019s office.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHow much of that did you hear?\u201d she narrowed her eyes.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, I don\u2019t know, that you suddenly decided that you don\u2019t like the way I make love.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI never said that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt didn\u2019t feel right.\u201d He mimicked.<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd telling Wesley. I thought spreading sex tales was for the boys in the locker room. Tsk. Tsk. Cordy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel\u2026\u201d Cordelia stood unsure at the vampire\u2019s tone.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy,\u201d The vampire grabbed her hand pulling her onto the bed. \u201cI\u2019m not mad. Wesley was right and I understand why you are feeling hesitant. I do too.\u201d He shrugged sitting up against the backboard of the bed.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou do?\u201d Cordelia puzzled.<\/p>\n
\u201cSure. We were in Sunnydale, not a happy memory place, you surrounded by Angelus\u2019 and Angels\u2019. Not a stress-free time. Hence, shoving you into the bathroom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
The vampire reached out his hand to cup her chin. \u201cYou are mine. I get a little anxious when others even other me\u2019s get involved. What if you liked one of the others better.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAngel, I wouldn\u2019t\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOf course not. But, don\u2019t you think it\u2019s time you proved it,\u201d he grabbed at her head, pulling her lips towards his.<\/p>\n
Cordelia jerked back. Okay, the too gentlemanly vampire was gone, but now\u2026Her eyes widened in a sickening thought.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou are quick on the soulless bit aren\u2019t you? It\u2019s just the soul bit you are slow on.\u201d Angelus laughed, clamping his hand over her mouth, his body covering hers immobilizing it.<\/p>\n
\u201cOoh, no kick to the groin or sneaky vamp hunter move. God you are wondrous, all mine, and this time I\u2019m not wasting time on games.\u201d He plunged his fangs and cock hard into the struggling body.<\/p>\n
Cordelia fought but her body was pinned the only leeway given was when the vampire thrust, but it was too fast and hard for her to move. The blood was draining fast from her body. The world was spinning and fading, but nowhere did she get the answers of how she was dying in Angelus\u2019 embrace.<\/p>\n
***
\nAngelus withdrew from the lax body. He sensed the hotel as he drew a cut into his chest. Wesley was gone and the only vibrant heart was from the woman down the hall. Convenient. Cordy would need food when she woke. Angelus cradled the body close to his chest urging her lips over the flowing self-made wound.<\/p>\n
He growled as her cooling lips sucked taking in the blood that filled him.<\/p>\n
Angelus gently laid the woman on the bed. He debated about leaving and going to the nourishment down the hall, wanting to give Cordelia a gift when she woke. But, he didn\u2019t know if Angel had ever been invited into Fred\u2019s room before, probably, but it wasn\u2019t a chance he would take just then. This time he would wait patiently.<\/p>\n
Wesley wasn\u2019t in the hotel, Gunn wasn\u2019t. Fred wouldn\u2019t bother the couple. He would have all night. Then he would act. So, he just waited, pulling the body close, studying the soft contours and the strength underneath. God, she would be amazing when she woke and was finally his.<\/p>\n
Part 19<\/b><\/p>\n
Cordelia pushed against the body that held her. She was starving. She growled and shoved, the body next her held nothing to cure the hunger.<\/p>\n
Angelus shot up at the movement. \u201cSleeping beauty awakes.\u201d He smiled.<\/p>\n
Cordelia looked at the vampire and then her surroundings. \u201cI\u2019m hungry.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOf course you are.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWell, if you knew that why isn\u2019t there a body tied up for me. It\u2019s not like there isn\u2019t one just down the hall.\u201d She growled.<\/p>\n
Angelus sat up. His beautiful childe definitely grooved right into the undead mode.<\/p>\n
\u201cShe\u2019s in her room, I can\u2019t get in.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou didn\u2019t even try did you?\u201d Cordelia rolled her eyes.<\/p>\n
\u201cA waste of time and possible alarm ringing.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia stared at the vampire. \u201cYou, dumb ass, have Carte Blanc into Fred\u2019s room, she invited you in months ago.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh.\u201d Angelus brows rose. \u201cWas the soul doing her too?\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia smacked him. \u201cDon\u2019t be an idiot.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angelus lurched, covering Cordelia\u2019s body with his own. \u201cI\u2019m your sire.\u201d He growled a warning.<\/p>\n
\u201cPfft.\u201d She pushed. \u201cI\u2019m hungry.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI want to have sex.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI want to eat.\u201d She kicked at the vampire.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou aren\u2019t acting right.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe you should\u2019ve driven me crazy first. Hmmph.\u201d Cordelia got off the bed. \u201cGo get her. I can\u2019t. I\u2019m dead.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou expect me, your sire to feed you?\u201d He growled.<\/p>\n
Cordelia walked over to the vampire, stroking his chest. \u201cI expect you to feed me so I\u2019ll have the appropriate desire to fuck you into next week and then go kill Wesley so he doesn\u2019t figure out the time spell to change this little divergence.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh.\u201d Cordelia backed up. \u201cBefore you go though, tell me. You aren\u2019t my Angel, so what- in Angel A and B\u2019s little sortie to bag the Angelus\u2019 he got killed and you decide to take his place? Though, I\u2019m still a little hazy why you are here. You had a soul when we left 1998.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYour Angel?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWell, he was the one I knew.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angelus chuckled. \u201cIt\u2019s really kind of funny. The Angel B, as you called him, me, decided that he wanted the future of the other soul boy so he killed him, really, he had good intentions, love you, keep you safe, but he forgot one important thing in his obsession, his soul wasn\u2019t bound. So, here I am- and I\u2019ve really missed you. Can\u2019t tell you how happy I am that I got to finish what I started in 1998 or was it 1898. When we are done here, I\u2019ve still a grudge to settle with the slayer.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cStill obsessed with the blonde one, that makes me warm and fuzzy inside.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh please, revenge is all I want. She interrupted something that should have been done four years ago. You are mine.\u201d He pulled Cordelia towards him, sharp teeth nicking at the permanent marks displayed.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, I can understand revenge, I\u2019ve a list. After you feed me, maybe I\u2019ll tell you,\u201d she teased, kissing at him, biting at his mouth.<\/p>\n
Angelus kissed back then pushed. \u201cYou are going to be handful.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDid you really expect anything different?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d Angelus laughed.<\/p>\n
\u201cHey.\u201d She called as the vampire moved towards the door.<\/p>\n
Angelus turned.<\/p>\n
\u201cLess shock and more cooperation if you don\u2019t show up at Fred\u2019s door-naked. She\u2019d blush, then that quick brain of hers would start to think rapid thoughts and she keeps experiments in her room ones that always seem to shoot sharp deadly objects.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angelus nodded, opening the closet. \u201cAny suggestions. Don\u2019t want to look gay.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia chuckled and went under the vampire\u2019s arm to pull out some clothes. \u201cLeather pants and a tasteful black sweater.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo color?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo soul. And I think I can tell you this now, you look really hot in all black. Mysterious, sexy, dangerous, edible. But, hey, go for the biker Lorne look if you want.\u201d<\/p>\n
Angelus gripped at her shoulders. \u201cJoke, tease all you want, but KNOW what you are.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia cocked a brow. \u201cAnd what exactly am I other than a vampire, a very hungry one at that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou are mine. You will do what I say.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia scoffed. \u201cGet over yourself. When I was Angel\u2019s I never did what he said unless he had a good reason. That won\u2019t change. Deal with it or chose another playmate.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou are a pain in the ass.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia laughed. \u201cI think that was one of the unspoken reasons why Angel loved me and why Angelus wanted me, what do you think?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI think you are mine,\u201d Angelus shoved her against he wall, pounding in her with one stroke, moving then with a force that had Cordelia slamming into the walls.<\/p>\n
Cordelia clutched at the dark head, pushing back with inhuman force, letting the violent coupling continue into both vampires were gasping and shuddering.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019ll do.\u201d She moved her hips releasing the vampire, giving him a coy smile.<\/p>\n
Angelus laughed. \u201cYou are mine.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia laughed. \u201cWhatever you think, sire.\u201d She bowed. \u201cI\u2019m hungry.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBitch,\u201d he laughed pulling on the pants Cordelia had thrown out of the closet and tugging on the sweater she picked out.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut, I\u2019m cute.\u201d She smiled after the vampire.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re fucking gorgeous and you know it.\u201d He shut the door.<\/p>\n
Cordelia stared at the closed door. God she really was hungry.<\/p>\n
Part 20<\/b><\/p>\n
Cordelia paced the room, gnawing at her lips. Waiting, wondering, thinking, not at all sure what she would do when the vampire came back with Fred.<\/p>\n
She swirled as Angelus returned, Fred bundled up in his arms. The girl was still alive but scared to death. Wow, was that enticing. Cordelia stopped in front of Angelus. \u201cThank you.\u201d She kissed him and then looked at the young woman. \u201cSurprised aren\u2019t you. Don\u2019t worry, the surprises don\u2019t end here.\u201d Cordelia took the stake from behind her back and shoved it into Angelus chest. She stepped back as the dust settled.<\/p>\n
\u201cFred,\u201d Cordelia spoke, her eyes remaining on the dust. \u201cRun, go to your room and stay there, don\u2019t under any circumstances let me in. I am really hungry right now. Go. Call Wesley, tell him to get his ass here immediately with a crossbow. Please, go, don\u2019t talk, don\u2019t ask, just run.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGO.\u201d Cordelia flashed her demon face.<\/p>\n
Fred didn\u2019t take a second longer.<\/p>\n
Cordelia moved around the dust pile, slumping to the ground, her fingers twirling in the remains. What had she just done?<\/p>\n
Part 21<\/b><\/p>\n
Wesley waited at the entrance for Gunn. One more second and he would go in. Fred said she was safe in her room, but Wesley couldn\u2019t take that chance.<\/p>\n
\u201cWes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Wesley nodded at his friend. They both walked in scanning the lobby finding it empty. The cautiously walked up to the first floor, going first to Fred\u2019s room.<\/p>\n
\u201cFred,\u201d Wesley called out gently, praying to hear an answer.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh thank god,\u201d Fred ran to the door. \u201cCordy\u2019s a vampire, Angel is dust, she did it, I saw her, then she told me to run in here and stay and call YOU,\u201d she rambled to Wesley.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhere is she?\u201d Wesley swore silently that he would remain calm and focused.<\/p>\n
\u201cI think still in their room, I don\u2019t know for sure. I stayed here. I think maybe I heard her go downstairs but I think she came back, I don\u2019t know. Vampire\u2019s are quiet and I just don\u2019t know.\u201d Fred blinked. \u201cWhat happened?\u201d<\/p>\n
Wesley nodded and raised his crossbow and opened the door to Angel and Cordelia\u2019s suite. \u201cCordy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOver here, don\u2019t come any closer, you did bring the cross bow.\u201d<\/p>\n
Wesley flicked on the light switch resisting the urge to shut it off again at the sight.<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy, what-?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat\u2019s going on? What\u2019s happening? What the fuck? What are you trying to ask, Wesley?\u201d<\/p>\n
Wesley moved in closer studying the girl slumped against the wall. Empty containers of Angel’s pig blood littered the ground by her feet.<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you have your soul?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo. At least I\u2019m pretty sure I don\u2019t. It took five containers of this shit for me not to leave the hotel or beg Fred to let me in. I got sick. This stuff is gross. I\u2019ve never tasted human but it smells so much better.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou didn\u2019t leave and the turning process could create a blood lust that is so instinctual that you wouldn\u2019t realize that you had a soul, but you didn\u2019t leave, didn\u2019t kill any one.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI killed Angel.\u201d She laughed. \u201cI don\u2019t have a soul, Wesley, forget that semi good option out of all this shit. I\u2019ve only memories and the feelings that accompany them, but those feelings are fading pretty fast now.\u201d<\/p>\n
Gunn clenched his jaw trying to ignore the sock to his gut as Cordelia admitted to being a vampire, just as he tried to ignore the sharp nails Fred pierced into his arms at Cordelia\u2019s each acknowledgement.<\/p>\n
\u201cWill you tell us what happened?\u201d Wesley move closer unsure about Cordelia\u2019s demeanor. She said she was a vampire without a soul but she had said nothing to threaten anyone, her only kill had been Angel.<\/p>\n
\u201cStay back, please.\u201d She held out her hand. \u201cI don\u2019t know when it\u2019s going to snap.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSnap?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe hunger is gone. Like I said I got sick.\u201d She waved a hand at the empty containers. \u201cBut the smell, human, I really want it.\u201d She looked up at Wesley. \u201cYou have to listen to me.\u201d<\/p>\n
Wesley took a step back and nodded.<\/p>\n
Cordelia licked her lips and returned a nod. \u201cIt wasn\u2019t Angel that returned through the portal.\u201d She held up her hand. \u201cDon\u2019t interrupt me I need to finish this while I still want to.\u201d<\/p>\n
Wesley shut his jaw and nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cI told you that something had gone wrong that you sent another Angel, Angel B, a vampire with a soul but with even more issues than ours to 1998 to fix what Angel and I had done. Well, that Angel decided to become our Angel. I didn\u2019t realize it at first, just thought it was nerves or something. I went to you,\u201d she glared at Wesley.<\/p>\n
\u201cI told you that I thought something was wrong, but no, you said it was because Angel had faced two Angelus\u2019 and another Angel. Well, you were wrong. It was because THIS,\u201d She slapped at the dust on the floor,\u201d Killed Angel and came back in his place. The idiot, while wanting our Angel\u2019s future forgot that his soul wasn\u2019t bound and viola.\u201d She waved her hand in front of her dead body.<\/p>\n
Wesley refused to react or beat himself up. He would be sure to do that later. \u201cYou killed him?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe killed Angel.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAre you sure you don\u2019t have a soul?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWesley, it isn\u2019t a matter of a soul, Angel, our Angel, is MY Angel, that wasn\u2019t him.\u201d She waved her hand at the dust. \u201cIt wasn\u2019t Angel or the Angelus I would accept. He killed Angel.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay.\u201d Wesley nodded. \u201cWhat\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWesley, Geez, use that brain of yours. You have to go back a fix it. Make sure that Angel B doesn\u2019t kill Angel. He has to go though, because he did stop the other fuck up.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe other\u2026what?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou sent Angel B back because Angel and I had sex as soon as he got there, he was going to mark me again. He wanted the younger body. Though, why he couldn\u2019t have been happy with the older body is beyond me, you saw me, is that body really any better than this,\u201d she jerked to her form.<\/p>\n
Wesley gulped. \u201cYou were and are beautiful, I would venture my opinion that even more so now, or well, a day ago a least when you were alive.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cordelia laughed. \u201cThanks, I think. Anyway, I was pretty disappointed that we got interrupted. Angel B showed up. Watching, all of them watching, Angelus 1, 2, Angel B, it was a freakin porn movie, should\u2019ve made popcorn for the degenerates.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cUm, Cordy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cRight, you\u2019re blushing. Don\u2019t do that, it brings the blood to surface. I can almost taste it. I could just decide to eat you or maybe turn you. I love you. You\u2019re family. Maybe you kiss better as a vampire.\u201d<\/p>\n
Wesley jerked his cross bow up. \u201cYou were saying something other than that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou don\u2019t love me?\u201d<\/p>\n
Wesley bowed his head. \u201cI love the non-vampire Cordy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s not fair. I didn\u2019t ask to be a vampire.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, you didn\u2019t. And you are being very nice by telling us this and not killing us.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI am aren\u2019t I?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s kind of weird, but I still remember everything, the feelings and everything.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes, I\u2019ve read that some vampires retain their humanity longer than others, you clearly have.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, are you sure you don\u2019t want to be a vampire, think of how smart you\u2019d be, and all the books you could read over the many years. It could be fun.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, Cordy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHmmph. I\u2019m getting hungry again.\u201d She scrunched up her face at Wesley. \u201cYou have to go back. I can\u2019t go. I want too, really. But, I\u2019m pretty sure that I would go straight for my soul and destroy it and probably try to kill Buffy at the same time. See, that\u2019s where I was. Angel and Angel B shoved me into Buffy\u2019s house, while they were supposed to fix everything. He said I\u2019d be safe. Am I safe? I told him I didn\u2019t want to go.\u201d Cordelia looked to the ground.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou have to go Wesley, you have to save Angel.\u201d<\/p>\n
Wesley nodded. \u201cI will.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPromise.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay,\u201d Cordelia took another deep breath. \u201cI still love you all but you better do it now, Wesley.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCordy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m a soulless vampire, Wesley. You are my family. It\u2019s not safe. Do it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI love you, Cordy.\u201d Wesley shot his crossbow.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh shit,\u201d Gunn jerked.<\/p>\n
Fred ran to the dust. \u201cNo. Oh god, no.\u201d<\/p>\n
Wesley turned his back to his friends. \u201cFred, a portal, now. When Angel was sent.\u201d<\/p>\n
Fred blinked up through her tears. \u201cRight.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFuck.\u201d Gunn shook his head. \u201cEnglish, you can\u2019t go alone.\u201d He ran after Wesley.<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Fred and Gunn sat across Wesley\u2019s desk. The young brunette held the wafer in her hand. \u201cI almost don\u2019t want to know if we mess up again.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe\u2019s going without me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCharles, we have to stay together in case something else goes wrong.\u201d<\/p>\n
Gunn grunted. \u201cLet\u2019s hope this works.\u201d He swallowed the thin wafer.<\/p>\n
Fred nodded as she did the same.<\/p>\n