{"id":2954,"date":"2015-06-28T22:27:59","date_gmt":"2015-06-28T21:27:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/goteamfiction.com\/?p=2954"},"modified":"2015-06-28T22:53:27","modified_gmt":"2015-06-28T21:53:27","slug":"what-now-1","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/goteamfiction.com\/index.php\/2015\/06\/28\/what-now-1\/","title":{"rendered":"What Now? 1"},"content":{"rendered":"

Title: What Now?<\/b>
\nAuthor: <\/b>Dock
\nPosted: <\/b>05-09-03
\nEmail<\/b><\/a>
\nRating: <\/b>R\/NC-17
\nCategory: <\/b>Serious Angst
\nContent: <\/b>C\/A, C\/Aus
\nSummary: <\/b>
\nSpoilers: <\/b>Up to Provider & Up to Wrecked (with some minor changes)
\nDisclaimer: <\/b>The characters in the Angelverse were created by Joss Whedon & David Greenwalt. No infringement is intended, no profit is made.
\nDistribution: <\/b>NF, GT and whoever else wants it
\nNotes: <\/b>While I was working on \u201cBaby, I’m back!\u201d I got an idea for a darkfic…. I scrapped it because I didn’t think I could write it. Well I decided to… follow Dannyblue’s wise advise and think of my limitations as a challenge. Those of you who enjoy my fluffy fics should know THIS IS NOT FLUFF. It is very dark.
\nThanks\/Dedication:<\/b>I just wanted to thank Syn for being my very first Beta and Gabby for her recommendations. You two totally rock.
\nFeedback:<\/b>Are you kidding? Hell yeah! This is my first (possibly only) darkfic and my first standalone.<\/p>\n

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Angel stood in the doorway of his suite watching Cordelia bounce his son in her arms while she chatted with Fred.<\/p>\n

\u201cIsn’t he the bestest baby in the whole wide world?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAbsolutely. So did you sleep here last night? I didn’t hear you leave.\u201d<\/p>\n

Cordelia buried her blushing face in the baby’s blanket. \u201cYeah I did. We were up late talking about how to spend the money while I was giving Connor his bottle. We just fell asleep.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThat’s so sweet.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI know but I shouldn’t let that happen. I’m not his mother. I shouldn’t pretend like I am.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cMy best friend when I was little was adopted. Her mama said just because a woman didn’t give birth to a child doesn’t mean she can’t be that child’s mother and being that child’s mother doesn’t make the woman who did give birth any less of a mother. A child has enough love in his or her heart for both.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDo you really think so?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDarla sacrificed herself for Connor. Despite my problems with her, I would never want to rob him of that precious love.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou wouldn’t be. I know you will tell Connor all about her. Well maybe not everything. He can love you both.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt’s not really up to me though. He’s Angel’s son. I can’t just decide to be Connor’s mother.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDo you want to be?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWith all my heart.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou and Angel can give Connor a real family.\u201d<\/p>\n

She stared at the baby in her arms. \u201cThat would be heavenly.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cSo would you only be a mother or do you see yourself playing the role of wife too?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cFred\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cCome on. You can tell me.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHe’s cursed.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBut if we could find a way around that?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIf\u2026it doesn’t do any good to wish for something that isn’t going to happen.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cPlease? Just tell me and I promise I’ll drop it completely.\u201d Fred crossed her fingers behind her back.<\/p>\n

\u201cYes. I would want to be a wife as well. Happy now?\u201d<\/p>\n

Fred smothered her squeal of delight with her hand. \u201cI knew it. You have kyerumption and moira. You love Angel. You love Angel.\u201d The girl danced around the room.<\/p>\n

\u201cFine. I’m in love with Angel.\u201d She smiled. \u201cI’ve never said it aloud. I’m in love with Angel. I’m in love with Angel and I want us to be family.\u201d She gazed at the baby in her arms. \u201cI want to be your mommy. Would you like that? Do you think you could love me and Darla, sweetie?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI know he can.\u201d<\/p>\n

The two women spun around at the sound of Angel’s voice.<\/p>\n

\u201cI love you too.\u201d<\/p>\n

Cordelia’s expression went from shock to fear to utter happiness. \u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI said I love you too.\u201d He took a step into the room. \u201cI want us to be a family.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou do?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYes\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI love you, Angel. There’s nothing I want more than for us to be a family.\u201d<\/p>\n

Angel’s heart swelled with joy. The joy suddenly was replaced with a horrible ache that turned into a sharp pain. \u201cOh god. No. Please no.\u201d He fell to his knees. He glanced up at Cordelia. He saw her joy turn to concern then fear before his soul was gone.<\/p>\n

Cordelia stared in mute horror. She knew without a doubt it was Angelus who stood between them and the only door. They were too high up. She could never get Connor out the window. Her thoughts were shattered by the sound of cruel laughter.<\/p>\n

Angelus rose to his feet and dusted himself off. \u201cDo you have any idea how long I’ve been waiting for you two to admit your feelings?\u201d He stretched his limbs. \u201cNow the real fun begins. Poor Soulboy. He didn’t even get a kiss this time around.\u201d His eyes drifted down to the baby. \u201cDid he ever tell you how delicious family blood is? A baby isn’t very filling. It’s more of an appetizer but I may just save my boy for dessert. I think I’ll start with sweet crazy Fred. Although I really should take the time to show her how much of a beast I truly am before I kill her. What do you think, Cordy? Which one should I kill first?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cPlease don’t.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDon’t what? If you’re going to beg, you need to be a little more specific.\u201d<\/p>\n

Cordelia cradled Connor closer to her chest. \u201cPlease don’t hurt them.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhy would I agree to that?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2026\u201d She glanced down at Connor’s sweet face. \u201cI’ll do anything if you’ll just let them go.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cCordy\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDon’t Fred.\u201d The glint in her eyes was cold and hard as steel when she looked up. \u201cLet them go and I will do whatever you want.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNow that is a tempting offer. What to do, what to do? Hunting them later could be fun too. The two hero wannabes will make it more interesting. So many choices. OK. I accept your terms.\u201d He took a step away from the door. \u201cFred and my son can go.\u201d<\/p>\n

Cordelia handed the baby to her shaking friend. \u201cFred, you don’t stop until you and Connor are safe. Angel has been invited into Wesley’s apartment so don’t go there. Do NOT come back here until Connor is safe. That includes Wesley and Gunn.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBut..\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNo buts. Now go!\u201d<\/p>\n

Fred eyes were riveted to Angelus as she edged her way closer to the door.<\/p>\n

The scent of the girl’s fear and her tears was delightful. If he had enough time, he would definitely see them again. Once they were gone, he shut the door and locked it. \u201cWe don’t have much time, Cordy. Your heroes will be here soon.\u201d<\/p>\n

Cordelia stood frozen. She had promised Angel she would stake him but she knew she’d never be able to overpower him. The sun had already set. After he killed her, he could easily catch Fred and Connor. She needed to buy them enough time to get away. \u201cWhat now?\u201d<\/p>\n

He dropped into a chair. \u201cTake off your clothes.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cShould I go after them now? You know I can still catch them.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNo!\u201d She began undressing. She could no longer hold back her tears.<\/p>\n

His predatory eyes raked over her naked form. \u201cBeautiful. You have no idea how many times the soul imagined this. Seeing you offer your body to him like the whore we all know you are.\u201d<\/p>\n

She tried to raise her chin in defiance. \u201cI am not a whore.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cSpare me your delusions. You offered yourself to me. I always suspected that you secretly wanted to be my plaything.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cShut up. Come over here and get on your knees.\u201d His features shifted at her hesitation. \u201cDon’t make me repeat myself.\u201d<\/p>\n

She slowly walked over to him. She wondered how far Fred had gotten. If she’d taken Angel’s car, she could be\u2026 No she hadn’t had enough time to get anywhere safe.\u201d She dropped to her knees.<\/p>\n

\u201cUnzip me.\u201d Her trembling hands fumbled with his belt. \u201cDon’t pretend like this is your first time. That’s better. Now take me into your mouth and if you try to bite me, I will make you watch Fred do this in your place.\u201d He smiled as her hot wet mouth surrounded him.<\/p>\n

His hands tangled in her hair and forced her head down. \u201cRelax your throat, you stupid bitch.\u201d He pushed her away. \u201cFor a whore, you’re not very good at this. Looks like I’ll have to do all the work.\u201d He rose to his feet, took her head in a harsh grip and thrust inside her mouth. He ignored her choking and continued ramming his way in. His cock kept slamming into the back of her throat. \u201cThat’s better. Use your tongue. That’s what it’s there for.\u201d He grunted in pleasure.<\/p>\n

\u201cNow you have the hang of it. I knew you’d make a great cocksucker.\u201d He tightened his grip on her head, pulling her hair. \u201cEver want to know what a vampire tastes like? You’re about to find out.\u201d He savored every whimper she made. The vibrations made him that much harder. \u201cOh fuck yeah!\u201d He exploded in her mouth while he held her in place. \u201cSwallow every drop.\u201d Her throat contracted around him. \u201cThat feels so good. Do it again. Oh yeah.\u201d Her constant sucking kept him hard. He shoved her away. \u201cNow get on the bed.\u201d<\/p>\n

She climbed onto the same bed she, Angel and Connor had shared the night before. Her lips and throat ached from his harsh treatment but the rest of her body felt numb. A small part of her mind was aware that Fred might have made it to safety by now. Her eyes searched the room. She knew Angel kept stakes in his room but where?<\/p>\n

\u201cDon’t bother looking for sharp objects. Soulboy moved his weapons into his closet. As if the baby could get anywhere near them yet, he really is a moron.\u201d He noticed her staring at the closet. \u201cYou’d never make it.\u201d<\/p>\n

The sight of his naked body made her feel sick. What should have inspired lust overwhelmed her with disgust. It didn’t matter. She would do anything to keep Connor safe.<\/p>\n

\u201cLay back and spread your legs for me. Show me how welcome I am.\u201d She mechanically did as he instructed. \u201cI knew you wanted to get fucked by a real vampire.\u201d He slowly began to crawl up her body.<\/p>\n

Cordelia flinched when she felt his tongue make contact with her entrance. \u201cWhat the hell do you think you’re doing?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDid you really think I was going to fuck you dry? What kind of man do you take me for? My women feel pleasure while I’m fucking them. The fear and humiliation are a bonus. We’ll get into the pain and blood part later. I wouldn’t want you to feel cheated.\u201d<\/p>\n

She tried not to think about what his tongue was doing to her body. She did feel the humiliation. Her body betrayed her heart as it became wet. Bile surged up her throat; she swallowed hard in response.<\/p>\n

\u201cShouldn’t you be trying to stop the people in Sunnydale from resouling you?\u201d<\/p>\n

He moved further up her body until they were face to face. \u201cYou want me to go kill them instead of killing the people you actually care about? You really are a cold-hearted bitch. No wonder they hate you.\u201d<\/p>\n

She could smell herself on his breath as he spoke. She turned her head away. Her nausea increased. \u201cWillow would have the spell done before you got there.\u201d<\/p>\n

He wrenched her face back. \u201cProbably that is why I’m going to stay right here in LA. I’ve tasted freedom twice and I know it won’t last. I can run around trying to make it happen.\u201d He leaned down to whisper in her ear. \u201cIt’s a vicious cycle. He can’t get rid of me and I can’t get rid of him.\u201d He lifted his head and looked into her eyes.<\/p>\n

\u201cInstead of learning another lesson in futility, I plan to ruin the one thing he wants the most. Think of it as my little present for my lesser half.\u201d His cock speared her body in one brutal thrust. \u201cHow does that feel, baby?\u201d His hips continued to slam into hers. \u201cYou’re so nice and wet for me. So much for Soulboy, huh?\u201d He grunted his pleasure into her ear. \u201cYou feel so good, so tight. When was the last time someone fucked you properly?\u201d<\/p>\n

Cordelia stared at the ceiling. Her body grew numb again. She watched a small spider slowly crawl across the ceiling. A laugh almost bubbled up. She usually screamed at the sight of spiders. She had been afraid of them ever since her cousin put one on her face to wake her up when they were both five. Now she fought monsters almost daily. They invaded her mind in her visions. They invaded her body. The feel of a monster, who wore the face of the man she loved, raping her made it seem almost funny to be afraid of spiders. She said it, even if only in her mind.<\/p>\n

She was being raped. She was being raped by the monster inside the man she loved. How could the best moment in her life be on the worst day of her life? Is that irony? Angel said he loved her. He said he wanted them to be a family. Connor would be her son. The wonderful moment cost them everything. Connor’s father was gone.<\/p>\n

All that was left was the thing moving in and out of her body in a harsh rhythm. She remained limp on the bed. It was strange but she wanted him to hurt her. He seemed intent on causing her unwanted pleasure. She could feel her inner walls start to hiccup in an oncoming orgasm. His thumb had begun rubbing insistently on her clit and her body responded. Her heart was screaming in horror that she could cum from being raped.<\/p>\n

Her mind responded that nerve endings had automatic responses to certain stimuli and the pleasure he was causing was meant to be a part of the violation. Angelus wanted to humiliate her. He wanted her to know she was betraying Angel. She had promised to stake him if he ever lost his soul. Would he ever be able to forgive her for allowing herself to not only be raped by his demon but to cum while it was happening?<\/p>\n

\u201cDon’t fight it, baby. You know you enjoy having my cock inside you. It feels good, doesn’t it? The way we’re connected, the way we’re sharing something you and Soulboy can never have, it feels good. You like having me between your legs. I bet you’ve fantasized about it. You can tell me. Tell me what you imagined I’d do to you. I’m willing to take requests.\u201d His thumb increased its torment.<\/p>\n

He was close. He captured her mouth, forcing his tongue inside. He proceeded to fuck her with his tongue and cock. One hand held her head forcing her to allow him to continue the invasion. His balls tensed as his release drew near. He released her mouth and prepared to sink his teeth into her neck. His eyes focused on Darla’s faded marks. He joyfully intended to replace them with his own.<\/p>\n

She silently prayed Angel wouldn’t hate her or blame himself for her death. He lost his soul because of her. It hadn’t been his fault. It was hers. She had given her body to his monster. The fault had been entirely hers. If she had reacted sooner, they could have escaped before his soul had been completely lost. She hadn’t fought. She had cooperated. Tears streamed down her face. Sobs choked from deep within her soul. She had cum.<\/p>\n

Angelus bit into her jugular the moment her inner muscles clamped down on him. He slammed into twice more, savoring her blood as it slid down his throat.<\/p>\n

Cordelia welcomed the approaching darkness. She wished Gunn and Wesley didn’t have to find her dead, naked body. She wondered if they would stake him rather than try to curse him again. Would Angel tell them what she had done? Would they forgive her for being Angelus’s willing whore? Would the Scoobies be told she had gotten off from being raped?<\/p>\n

Her final thought had been a plea. *Please don’t turn me!*<\/p>\n

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